~Run-Leona Lewis~

Here comes the video of my favourite singer....Love ya....(^-^)




I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

~The Journey Ends~

This coming week, will be the last week we all be together in one class....It's hard to start my words now, cause......I really really love all my friends in form 6 and i really don't wanna say goodbye to everyone by now...And this happens to be the saddest ever Graduation day i've been through...Standard 6 graduation...That time still tiny and know nothing at all...Form 5 Graduation...Happiest ever graduation day, cause that school really sucks...And now...didn't wish to end everything so fast in just 1 week time..


Reminiscent

Lower 6 time...That time Nicholas still with us....We play Mafia ( if i'm not mistaken with the name) recommended by him in our class...I was the police( izit?? )...the person who lose will have to dance "Chicken Dance " in next door classes..And..ended up whole class went to 6A3 and dance it all in front of them..Haha..What a silly game..

Junior camp...erm..too many memories...countless to mention..


Sau Seong- The funniest guy i've ever met...He just keep on laughing and smiling without reasons and frankly..I din see his angry face before...Sometimes really very 'kiam pa' cause of his 废ness..When teacher ask a question..he can tell a bunch of answers but none of it is correct.(=.=").Good to have this friend isn't it...

Yin Tian-Erm...playful but very very smart guy...Love Jay Chow very much..That's all I know bout him..

Wooi Seng-Handsome lor...Often act like small kids...like he dunno he's edy 20 years old liao...*roll eye*

Sheng Jie-Talented in drawing, calculating and singing too...The first time i met him, i tought he had 'Zhi bi zheng'...Cause he loves to hide himself aside and keep on drawing something..Which is so zhi bi isn't it?

Soon Poi- Also known as She pei..So obsess with sexual education...Hey..I did learn many things from him...is that good things or bad..=.=??

Yit Zen-Tall...bald..loves volleyball, Lol...

Y.B.M-GET OUT OF MY WAY...YOU MORON!!

Choppy-The smartest guy i ever met in the world..There's nothing he don't know...ALso known as the GOD in our class...He is so 'Hallelujah..Hallelujah~', that everytime i see him, I can't stand to say Oh My God..Wonder what he eat to have that IQ..??..Hmmm..

Boon Kai-..Agung of Betty..He is the lambang Kebettian of the world...

Shin Yee n Kerry- The top 2 in our class...haha

Chia yang-Funny guy oso...'Da Sao yeh'...

G.K- The most 'ki lao hiao' guy in our class..alwiz suddenly sing those oldies love song in front of me when i'm doing my homework...Also one of the God in our class ...

Weng kit-..Hmm..wat should i say bout him leh??...i've knew him for 6 years..and.......................................He is still the usual hamsaplou..muahahaha..



I really don't know whether there is still a chance for us to meet together again in the future...Maybe some will go study overseas, some go Sabah Sarawak, and others..Then, our journey together will have to end..

~Farewell...Librarian..~

Haha...tired of reading books again, come blog some rubbish lor...Anyway..last few days was Librarian's MP at Prescott Hotel...Well, i have to say that this year's MP was actually better than last years want(in my point of view, no insulting please)..The place, the foods, the environment are all nice...Even their performances too....I knew some senior might feels a lil bit *erhem erhem* in their dancing part..which obviously looks like a robot =.=||...But hey, they are just so new for that and don't you all think that, it really entertain us so much mie?..I almost spit out my rice in that part...Muahaha!!...Did I just say that??..

Anyway...great applause for all the juniors and keep up the good work bah...







6A2 Librarians...Rocks..!!


Arghh...I looks dumb in this pic...Btw..I've alwiz looks dumb...haha..

Haha...FYI..I grab those photo from Ee leng d..Hope he don't mind la...

~High School Musical 3:Senior Year...Gotcha~

Wow...So happy today, coz finally watch the movie I bloody hunger of...High School Musical 3 Senior Year...I really gone crazy since the released of it the first day and can't even concentrate in my studies though exam is drawing near...I'm so crazy bout it that i can suddenly sing :

"High school musical...Who says we have to let it go....."

in the half way i'm reading my PA books....=.=||..

Well...special thanks for Weng kit for driving us there...Ju-yee who accompanying us eventhough she already watch it the first day of release....Li vern...looks like your curse didn't came true that day...We finally WATCH IT...MUAHAHAHAHA....Nevermind la...u can go watch with ur Teng Teng what...Muahahaha








Look what I've got here...It's High School Musical's popcorn bucket and drinks....Arghh...great marketing tactics...Just a small bucket of popcorn and drinks cost me RM 10.00...Likes it gonna be tastier with that Gabriella and Troy out the packet...Zzz...Haha..kidding...I Love them.....

Anyway...It's the last movie for it and i definitely gonna miss them...Hope they never stop...


What team? Wild Cat !! What team? Wild Cat!!

~Fuck It~

For all readers that are planning to on a account in CIMB BANK, I strictly advise you not to do so...That fucked bank is the worst bank I ever see in my whole life...Especially KU branch...FOr all KU readers , please be alert

The story starts like this..My father demanded me and my mom to on a bank account in that fucked bank saying that it will be handy for us to withdraw some cash as it is the nearest...At first, i really kinda lazy and not interested in that sort of things..But since i use the word DEMANDED up there..so, it's a must for us to do so...Then I drive there and was actually happy to see that not many ppl was there so i don't have to wait for a long queue..Then fill in that forms for me and my mom ..Heres the anger starts..

AFter i've filled up the forms, one of the staff there ask me to take the pin number for further process at the counter..That staff is the only chinese female i saw working there and is actually quite nice towards us..Shes helpful..Since it was I and my mom are opening d accounts, i didn't notice that i've just took 1 pin number only..But that pretty chinese staff allowed us to use 1 number for 2 person together with the reason that...

"Oh...you took 1 only, nvm la, since just 1 counter functioning only"..

Ok..listen to her..forget bout taking another ticket..Then after a long wait for very little ppl over there, finally it's my turn..Then i and my mom walk together towards the counter and give her all the forms..This time..It's a MALAY FAT GIRL..A very fat girl..probabaly diagnose with diabetes or obesity or whatever..She saw my mom standing behind me..Then sy this:

Fat Malay girl: Yang you itu nak buka account juga ke??
My mom:..Ya
Fat Malay Girl: Apasal tak ambil nombor??
Me: Dia ibu saya..Lagipun, Kan satu kaunter saja yang buka.
Fat Malay Girl: Yalah...ambil juga lar..

My mom walk away to take that ticket again...That time, i admit that my face straight turns into a devil...擺臭臉...And look into her face like killing her..And obviously she knows dat i beh song liao..

Fat girl: Kau pelajar lagi?..Belajar kat mana?
Me: STk
Fat girl: kau tu masih pelajar lagi buat perangai cam tu pulak..lain kali cam mana nak kerja ngan orang..?
Me:.....(didn't say anything)..

Scanning finger process... 1st time..failed..2nd time failed, 3rd time failed again...

Fat girl :Jari kau tu kenapa?..
Me:..Sudah la...Aku tak nak buka lar ..( quite high volume)..Buat satu akaun susah betul...Service teruk sangat..
FAt girl:...Tak nak ke?..

Took all my things straight walk away with my mom..And take loudly again with my mom

ME :不知道什么爛銀行。。service 差到出汁..馬來人就是馬來人。人頭豬腦。

連罵 fuck you我都會覺惡心。對我媽態度醬差，應該是自己出生就沒媽媽的豬。我說過誰敢欺負我媽，我就詛咒他祖中18代...像她這種廢物，人肥到像豬，拿去做 pork chop 啦..這樣多人死不看她死..還講我這副牛脾氣以后怎樣找工。我找不找到工管你屁事啊？。又不看看自己還不是半斤八兩。擔心我的事還不如擔心一下她這樣的豬頭以后找不找得到老公。。畜生o0o

~What Do you want???~

Argh...so confused today....confused with all the things i did..Exam coming, wanna take cincai any book to study or even just a glance through it, after half minutes, stopped...

Evil: What's wrong with u.??.come on la, exam still got 1 month..Next week are holiday too..What for study so early..??..what a noobass...

Persuaded...Cheated...Throw away that book, eventhough it's a chemistry which is my favourite subject...Muahaha..Went sit at the living room...Turn on the TV watch movie...another 1 minute....Stopped again..

Angel: Hey...Are you really going to waste your time there watching those stupid movie?..You definitely have no right to do that in this critical moment...Every minutes now decides the way you're going in the future..quickly go study la..

Listened to him...Went take physic book this time...Woohoo...i did it...!!..I read it for half an hour now,..Great...I studied....At last...Wait...What did i read just now??...OMG....Right...Give up again..went sleep this time..Until 5pm..Woke up...Extreme headache and giddy...Cant study anymore...Yeah..at least a better reason now..Till now...Sitting here blogging...Headache kononnya...WAsted whole day..studied half an hour for nothing...slept whole afternoon which causes headache and made me unable to study the whole night( Great chain effect)...

Moral of the story...If you really wnt to concentrate in your studies....DOn't ever stay at home...

PS:.. you means me...Muahaha...crazy update..

~Lost~

Just as I've predicted earlier, Lin Dan once again own the victory of the badminton finals of Olympic Games 2008...Frankly speaking, I have no good impression on Lin Dan as I felt that he did not have good sportmanship attitude and spirit..Remember when there was one badminton competition held in Malaysia few years ago, Lin Dan was facing Lee Chong Wai just like today's game...The only different is that game was in Malaysia but today's is at China..Lee CW won the game and FYI, that was the first time he defeated Lin Dan..After that, on Medal presenting ceremony, Lin Dan refuse to wear on the medal in front of everyone and leave as soon as he took the medal..I was like WTH are he doing??..Can you plz do something with your attitude and at least pay respect to the audience there and yourself..Since that, Lin Dan always sees Lee CW as his greatest enemy and wouldn'y spare any chance for him to defeat him anymore...

Comes back to the game today, despite not supporting Lin Dan, I still have to believe in reality that Lee CW utterly not his obstacle on being the Gold Medalist..The moment I watch the games today, I just can't find any weaknesses Lin Dan have in himself and every movement and rally of his is like totally perfect..What to do?..The circumstances around there, with the air of China, thousands of supporters and their storming sounds suits him well and totally boost Lin Dan up..In the other hand, weakened Lee CW...

Sigh.....At first before the game started, I thought I would feel nothing no matter who wins the game..In fact, it has got nothing to do with me...However, the moment when I'm watching the games, looking Lee CW losing point by point, my heartbeats suddenly increases...Watching him making the same mistakes almost every game, I just can't withstand the chemistry inside me, and finally LinDan scores his game point for the second game, tears started roll down..At that time, I feel's like going inside the TV and give Lee CW a hug and tell him

" It's ok....Nevermind...You have done your best..Although you have lost at that particular game, but try think deeply..You are the first in our country, and you are also the first on everypart of the world, ignoring the existence of China..

Guess there would be many critics outside there saying that Lee CW was totally weak or bla bla bla bla in that game..Warn you, please don't simply insult him when you can't do better than him.You have no idea how stressful he was when the whole nation of our country were using magnifying glass to see him as everyone thought he is the only hope for a gold medal ...Just hope that he can work harder and we all believe that you'll once defeat Lin Dan again in the future....Jia You LEE CW

~Hypnotize~

Exam coming, things are going crazy...I'm crazy!!!!..

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~Beijing Olympic 2008~

Right here today, sharp at 8.00pm 08 August 2008 comes the most anticipated day of the world nation, The Opening Ceremony of Beijing Olympic Games 2008..After the closing of the last Olympic Games which is at Athens (if I'm not mistaken), the long preparation time for China Beijing in this year's Olympic games obviously didn't turn us down..The ceremony was so grand and great with almost thousands people performing with various kind of performance..Every single performance comes with one theme which describe the chinese cultures and not forgeting to promote famous places such as 'The Great Wall of China', and 'Silk Road'...All I have to say now is that the opening ceremony is the nicest want I've ever seen if compared to the years before...And guys out there, if you miss it, you'll gonna regret...wuahahaha..


However, what I concern the most is about the rumours spreaded everywhere regarding the Olympic Games this year..Some of them said that the Olympic Games held this year will either goes successfully but will be the last Olympic Games ever in this world, or causes deadly impact on those who participate in it...Somehow, I wonder, why are there people loves to spread malicious news which obviously will gonna influence others?..I don't understand what is so funny on casting fear on others through this kind of rumours without any evidences or scientifical theory...No matter what, let us just hope that everything will goes smoothly and peacefully till the end of the games...



Turns to------>


The Beijing Olympic Stadium

~Tired~

I can't stand it anymore....I feel so tired everyday..With the endless problem need to be solved everyday...Often busy with club activities, can't even concentrate in my study neither in class nor home....My brain just keep on thinking.." what should i do now, what if this happen., what if that happen.."...Suddenly, makes good friend with Headache and Imsomnia..Body started malfunction and grey hair started pop out for over brain usage...I really wanna run away from all those thing..But, can I?...I can't just throw all those thing to someone else to do it just like many ppl outside there always did..I hate irresponsible people...But there is just too much of them and at the end, I'm the victim of those people and ended up throwing so many things for me to settle..Somehow, i feels like, it's myself that are torturing myself..If i can make myself an irresponsible people, I wouldn't have so much workload...Well..it's merely just different point of thinking...You have the choice to be the one that others people hate the most, or the you that you your ownself hate the most...Figure it out...

~传说 ( Legend )~

In the quiet and cool late night, listening to my favourite artist's 'Lin You Jia' song named 传说 ( Legend )...Makes me think about many things happened for the past one and a half year in my school now...Thinking about all the frenz i've met...Suddenly noticed that, our time together will gonna end soon...As soon as only less than half-a-year...Remember we all went to camp together...Remember we went shopping,watch movies, dinners and do almost everything together...And remember all the laughters we all had together...Sigh, the more I think about that, the harder i feel...I know it might be too early for saying that now, but it all seems like just happen in a split of time....And it's so memorable in my heart just like the song I'm listening now...Legend....

~Appreciate~

Yesterday went to my cousin's wedding dinner and frankly speaking, i actually quite ashamed of myself because i don't even know what's her name..All I know about her is that........She is my mom's sister's daughter, in short, my cousin...SWEAT!! =.=||..Haha, not surprising though because i guess the last time i saw her is when i was form 1 and who on Earth will gonna remember what happens and who met in that small age..Haha..and the most important things is, she is actually younger than me..If i'm not mistaken, she should be 17 years old now...Can u imagine, a person in that age steps into marriage that early..Haha..I bet you know what's the reason..(Juz keep it in our heart lar, there is no need to mention about that)..Right, all the night was just keep on eating, drinking, keep "yam seng" with relatives, and just BORING..That's why I hate to attend occasions like that..Then i saw my another cousin which had not been seeing each other for quite a decade also...And i was so happy to meet him back..So we chit chat around there because both of us are bored there too..wuahaha...so, he ask me how was life going now..Then i say, " Erm, still studying lor, now studying form 6"..Then he was like so interested with that and we keep on talk talk talk...In our conversation, he taught me a lots of things bout pursuing which course will be suitable for me and which job is better...And the last things he told me was.." No matter what you faced, just don't give up easily..Because not everyone had the same opportunity like what I have now.."..Then my mom appear and said " we're leaving"...Yeah!!..finally no nid yam seng with those drunkers..Wuahaha...When i was on my way back home, i keep of thinking about what my cousin told me before I left..FYI, he was actually a top students when he was form 6 time and he do receive a scholarship to England for computer studies...That time, we all are so proud of him...However, until one day he fainted in his house just 1 day before leaving to England and doctor had discovered he had a 肾病...Unfortunately, God had taken away a youth's future, and he can't go to England anymore..That time he even lock himself in his room not seeing anybody when we visit him..All we heard is his crying sound..Luckily, till today, he had fully recovered after a kind ppl donated his kidney to my cousin..May god bless that people for his kindness...and he finally can live a life like other people..So guys, please do appreciate what you have now when there are many misfortune person that don't stand a chance to have what we have...

~Why Am I Doing This?? =.=|| ~

Well, I really don't wanna do this, but since I've been tagged by Juyee so many times, then i guess i'll just fulfill her for this first and last time..wuahaha..

1. Real name :
Voon Min Siong

2. Nick name :
Ah voon, Wu wei xiong(Koala)..

3. Married :
No.

4. Male or female :
Male

5. High School :
High School Klang

6. Universiti/College :
Not Yet

7. Short hair or long hair :
Short

8. Are you a health freak ? :
Nope.

9. Height:
170cm++

10. Do you have a crush on someone? :
Yes

11. Do you like yourself? :
Sometimes yes,sometimes no

12. Piercings :
Definitely no

13. Righty or left handed? :
Right handed.

[[ FIRSTS ]] :

14. First surgery :
None.

15. First piercing(s) :
No

16. First person you see in the morning :
My mom..wuahaha

17. First award :
Erm..Champion for Sports day when I was Standard 1

18. First sport you joined :
Baby crawling competition

19. First pet :
Fish

20. First vacation :
I was too small that time. Don't really remember.

22. First crush :
at Form 4

23. Eating :
Apple

24. Drinking :
sky juice

25. I'm about to :
go toilet

26. Want kids:
Yup

27. Want to get married :
Yup

28. Careers in mind :
An architect..

[[ WHICH ONE IS BETTER ]] :

29. Lips or eyes :
Eyes

30. Hugs or kisses :
Hugs

31. Shorter or taller :
Taller.

P32. Romantic or spontaneous :
Spontaneous.

33. Sensitive or loud:
Sensitive

34. Trouble maker or hesitant :
Both not..

[[ HAVE YOU EVER ]] :

35. Kissed a stranger :
Never.

36. Drank bubbles :
Never.

37. Lost glasses/contacts :
No

38. Ran away from home :
Yes..For about 2 hours then i regretted..

39. Liked someone younger :
Yeah.

40. Liked someone older :
Yeah.

41. Broken someone's heart :
I don't no..eventhough yes also not purposely d..sorry..

42. Been arrested :
Yup..by my mom for stealing money when i was small

43. Cried when someone died :
Yeah.

44. Liked a friend :
I don't know

[[ DO YOU BELIEVE IN ]] :

45. Yourself :
Sometimes yes, sometimes no

46. Miracles :
Yes..but din experienced before

47. Heaven :
Yeah.

48. Santa Claus :
No..

49. Angels :
No

[[ ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ]] :

50. Is there one person you want to be with right now :
Yes

51. Do you believe in god :
Yes, sometimes.

~Moody~

Very moody today..But i don't know why...Nothings bad happens to me today, but the feeling of sadness and loneliness just sneak into my heart..At this particular moment, i suddenly remembered a song from Spice Girls named Goodbye..( forget about whether u think that is too outdated..It's the feeling and meaning of the song that counts..)..Don't wanna talk too much..Suddenly feel so tired...Suddenly feel like wanna say goodbye to everyone and the world..



No no no no
No no no no
No no no no

Listen little child, there will come a day
When you will be able, able to say
Never mind the pain, or the aggravation
You know there's a better way, for you and me to be

Look for a rainbow in every storm
Fly like an angel, heaven sent to me

[chorus:]
Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end
(Gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never change it, no no no

No no no no

Just a little girl, big imagination
Never letting no one take it away
Went into the world (Into the world), what a revelation
She found there's a better way for you and me to be

Look for a rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain, love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby

[chorus:]
Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end
(Gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never change it, no no no

No no no no
(You know it's time to say goodbye)
No no no no

The times when we would play about
The way we used to scream and shout
We never dreamt you'd go your own sweet way

Look for a rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby

[chorus:]
Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end
(Gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never, never, ever change it

(No no no no)
You know it's time to say goodbye
(No no no no)
And don't forget you can rely

(No no no no)
You know it's time to say goodbye
And don't forget on me you can rely

(No no no no)
I will help, help you on your way
I will be with you every day
(No no no no)... [fade out]

~Damn Him~

Damn stupid fellow..Bloody idiot, who don't even have a little tiny pig brain in his head..Really so angry today with that kind of brainless and stupid fucker man like him...Sorry for all those rude words, but i just can't control myself now..From the first time i know him, he actually already gave me a very bad impression with all his idiot thoughts and acting..But, i just try to calm myself down and just pretend nothings happen with all his brainless act...However, since today, i really can't stand him anymore for offending me..The story start like this...When i was doing my maths homework at school during free period today, that idiot just keep on come to my place and started playing with my another friend which is sitting next to me..They were actually started tickling each other like monkey and acting foolishly(Just like an idiot)..Try think, for a people sitting beside you but you just keep on playing around with others, don't you feel this will gonna irritates the one who is doing his homework quietly??...Things get even worse especially the one who irritates you are the one who you hate the most..Right..Just like before, i just pretend like nothing happens and keep on working on my homework..As i just wanted to lift my hand and take my calculator for calculation solving, again, that idiot just took away MY calculator without my permission or even just a single "for a while plz" which i thought is a simple human manners everyone should have..But he just took it assive it belongs to him.What do i do??...I just kept staring at him with my so called EVIL eyesight, but obviously, he didn't notice that I was doing that..Right..Here comes the climax for my anger..After using my calculator, he then just throw MY calculator at my table and in front of me without saying thank you or even sorry for doing this...Hello...What animal brain does this idiot own??..Which planet is him from??...An animal like him which don't even have a little manners or IQ towards others shouldn't be living in the world..Really don't understand why this kind of idiot could still have friends,(Ps: he actually don't have many also) and which type of people can stand his attitude and be friend with him..Since this, i think i will pay no more respect and definitely no more compromise with him anymore..The next time he did something offending me again, I will burst into fire and start blasting him "KAO KAO"...We'll watch and see...STUPID Y.B.M...

~Am I Weird?? ~

For you...Ya..YOU..The one who is reading my current post now...Am I really weird by your sight...Wuahaha, please don't say that I'm nuts for calling myself weirdo..It's just the combination of the observations I've got from most of my friends..

The first experiment...One day, when i was having Pengajian Am period, the teacher gave us a composition exercise(Karangan) which consist of 2 question for us to choose.The first question was about social illness of the youngsters now, and the second was about the usage of museum on developing our country.Well, be honest, if were you to choose, which one will you pick?? I bet most of you guys will gonna pick the first one right..Wuahaha..Not surprising though, coz almost 90% of my classmates pick that question, as they thought they had did endless time about that type of question.But, eventually, I've picked question 2..Well the reason is because i've also did numerous time bout question 1, and really kinda fed up wif dat kind of question.So i choose for something new for me and go for it..Till my friends started to ask me.." Why you choose this question?.Don't you feel it's rather difficult to write than the other?..You're so weird."

Second experiment...Another day, when our class was having Self-study period, what else, of course is hang around blabbering with frenz..We started talk about which subject should picked 1st to study for the exam..Wuahaha..Another choosey situation...Well, most of them said that they will probably study chemistry first with the reason that chemistry is much more tougher..Again I'm different from them for choosing Physics first to study...Then they asked me again.." Why choose physics first leh?(Haha..sorry for adding chinese slang,coz dat's d way we talk)..Chemistry got more things to memorise ma..Physics is just mainly about Formula only..And you can always study it later.." I replied: " I think i understand more about chemistry and lesser bout physic,so I think i will nid more time to digest Physics..So i will go for Physics first.." The same words came out from their mouth.." You're so weird "...

Well...from the above two experiment..I started figuring that am I really a weirdo??..After a long thinking..Firmly, I said..I'm not weird..Just because I did not do things the same ways with others doesn't named me a weirdo..In fact, every single human in this world are born to be different from each other..Even a twins will never gonna be perfectly 100% the same with each other..So I don't have to care bout what others people said about me...I own my own life..And I'm the only one who qualified to determine which way i'll go...I'll just let myself be myself...Nobody can come against me...WUAHAHAHAHA....

~Conflicted~

It's been ages since the last time i update my blog..Well..What to do??? The hectic life now just won't spare me a particular breaktime..I just barely couldn't let myself relax and stop thinking about my studies...Especially after the released of the STPM results for the previous year, I was totally stressed up and horrified when heard that many of those didn't actually do well..Those news really chills me for almost every night, and sometimes even brought imsomnia for me at that very moment..However, if you were to ask me, I would say that, this wasn't something bad at all..It is this news that brought me stress and granted me the energy to work hard on my studies..Haha, really gotta thanks them for bringing me this power to move on...( I mean for those who did not do well in STPM )..Wuahaha, I'm such a devil for saying that..You know i'm joking...

Alright, lets talk about my life recently..Erm, actually nothing special for these few weeks..As I've said, I've been working very hard for these consecutive weeks and everytime is just homework, homework, and homework...Yes, I can't denied that this kind of life weren't interesting at all, and it certainly is not my cup of tea also..However, life's a day now is no more about what we want..It's about what we must...Especially when people nowaday are all highly competitive among each other...Each of anyone of them holds either a Ph.D or at least a master to work in this community..Wow...That was totally unbelievable...So, what we can do is just keep ourself upgraded and keep catching on their pace..If you're one step slow down, you'll be eliminated...Sigh...Sometimes, i would wonder, why are people nowadays making their life so difficult?? You work diligently everyday and what does that gonna bring for you...In fact, there are some workaholic out there did actually paid up their health for consuming so much time in working life..Besides, news about people who commit suicide due to extreme life-stress are actually quite common now..So, why are we still being so stubborn with that??? Haha, talk was easy, doing would be the catch...This is still the reality, and somehow, we all have to accept it..And I....Who have been grumbling so much about lifes now, still have to finish my homework today.....Oh My God, what have I studied just now??...Methy-tetraphenylchloride....ARGHHHHHHHHHH....

(To be continued....)

~Expecting Miracle??~

Sigh....looks like, what I've promised myself didn't really put in my mind...Remember from some previous post, I denoted that I'm gonna stop fooling around, and start fighting for an excellence results for my exam..However, since today when i got back my Maths T exam paper, I really really feel like bursting into tears...Yes, your're right...Another RED again...It is so dissapointed to have this kind of sucks result, whenever I tought that I'm not going to fail for that...Maybe anything in this tiny world shouldn't be filled with " I thought", this phrase...What do you mean by you thought??...Did you think that you thought you're going to be Prime Minister in the future, then you're gonna 100% got that in the future..Times become harder especially when many of my friends got passed and most of them got at least 50% for their marks in that exam...How bout me??You've got a RED!!!...Even the one that always sleeps inside the class, and didn't listen to teachers lesson also got higher marks than me...The one that "I've thought", again that will never gonna make it, oso got higher marks than me...I'm actually not here to insults him or teasing him or what..In fact, he might looks lazy in the class, but at home, maybe he did work very very hard for that exam..But me...What've I been doing that time..Onlining, sleeping, watching TV, and just enjoying my life..Right...Since you've not been working hard for that, how can you expect a miracle is going to happen to you??...And this is all my fault..God doesn't helps a person who is lazy to be successful..Now, I'm really wondering that, am I still suitable for form 6 anymore...From many of my old secondary school friends, they might tought that, I'm a genius or very good in studying..But, since I've stepped into form 6, I can deeply understand that how stupid and idiot I am comparing with my classmates..Mostly are like choppy, GK, they all...No matter how hard i struggle for a good results, I still cant beat them...That's why I'm saying that, I'm actually nothing compared with them..I'm nothing....Nothing means to me anymore..

~Friends Are To Be, Or Not To Be???~

Sigh....I don't know how to start my words now..I've been sitting here typing for quite a long time, but I've deleted what i've typed just now too....Because, it's really not describing my feeling now and it's just not the things that I wanted to say here..Am I regreting for using blog to write about my life..Or, I should say that: I've really regretted for giving my blog address to others..Haha, sorry for those who are reading now..I do not mean to hurt or insult you all..But this is actually to prevent things like above happens when I write my blog...Since it's about my real feeling now, I decided to be honest with myself..Actually, I really not quite happy with somethings today. Although it's hard to say, but I really have to tell that someones really dissapoint me today..They really dissapointed me deep deep into my heart. And, that feeling is just too pain like thousand of thorns keep piercing in my heart..They gave me the feeling that, I'm actually a nobody to them..I'm just like a toy to them..When they need me, they come play with me. When did not, they just kick me aside..It feels like, i've been used by them..Between us, no friendship, caring, or even loves exist on our relationship..I should had understand that, there is no friendship forever in entire life, but there are friends to be used no matter where we go...This makes me started to think that, "what are friends??",...Why do we all here are so curious or crazy with friends??...I cannot deny that most of my friends out there actually gave happiness to me..But...The one that gave me a hardest time in my life are them too...We might easily forgot the happiness we once had in our life, but the sadest thing we once had is going to be the bittest memory in our entire life..And it's going to be with us forever just like a scar in our body, that influence our whole life...What i'm hoping is just having a friends that can share things with each other and we can actually talk to each other well...Am I too over with my opinion here..Maybe it's just too hard for two people without any biological relationship to be so close to each other..Each of them would certainly have a gap between their friends on things that can be share with each other...So close, yet so far...So, I really very dissapointed with them...Maybe I shouldn't had put my hope on them earlier, as I knew that somehow, we all still are people from two different world.......

~Time To Start And Time To Stop~

At last, school day had started now and I've upgraded myself into an upper 6 students. Sigh..., time had gone so fast that i couldn't even accept that I'm already 20 years-old now (following chinese calendar)..In fact, many memories when I was still in lower 6 are still fresh in my mind..Everything seems like just happened yesterday..Though missing those had gone, but we, as a human being should somehow accept the reality and keep on moving towards our future. I remembered that, i've read 1 book and there is a line inside it stated:

'Those who keep on look back into their past are a weaker, but those who keep on fight towards their future are as strong as a warrior'

At first, i couldn't really understand that particular sentence, and i felt that the one who wrote this was an idiot..But now, I deeply understand that statement..And that's why i feel that I'm weak..By the way, didn't human being learn to be strong from their past..Hmmph..Really makes me figure..Alright, forget about that..Let's talk something bout my new school lifez..Frankly, I'm actually quite sad as I heard that 2 of my friends had left our school..One of it is Nicholas, the one that brings endless laughter to our class. Although I'm not very close with him in my class, but he really is the nicest person I've met. He was the one that gave me the feeling that, Kwang Hua students is not as selfish as I thought. In fact, he loves to help us, and he is also a joker..However, he only finished his lower 6 here, then changed to Inti Colledge for an American Transfered Degree..The other 1 that left is Wilson..Erm.....have nothing to talk bout him, coz I've already knew that he's gonna left soon..Anyway, just wish him good luck at TAR colledge lar..Then I'll have to continue my form 6 journey here...This is gonna be my last year for school lifez and also my last chance to improve my result...I've promise myself, not to failed in any of my subject again this year..Never Again (Hope So)...U can do it....Keep holding on(listening to that song now).....Haha....Looks like, it's time for me to start my hardwork and effort now, and also time for me to stop my 'Honey Moon' day....